this is such a well-written yet raw piece - I definitely recognise the long-gone pattern of intrusive thoughts. I also really appreciate the advice at the beginning and at the end, it's all so very thoughtful. thank you so much for sharing!
this is a really good piece, and i am really happy that you had gabriel in your life for that brief encounter. we've struggled with suicidality too, your piece really captures that thought pattern well. my sister's bf is called gabriel, maybe good people are just called that... - j
ok this made me cry (tho ive fortunately not had to deal w such thoughts, but simply seem to be slipping into some rough patch these past couple days that im tryin to handle ok enough)
such impressive writing, very picturesque and well-crafted yet speaking to a very raw inner world. both a joy to read!
Should be back up and usable!